What does the name BoldlyBipolar mean to me? I put a lot of thought into this as I decided to adopt it as the name for my blog. I think it’s a good idea to give you all some insight on what the name means to me on a personal level, and why it is something that I try and live up to. Most people … Continue reading BoldlyBipolar- Behind the Name

Night has fallen again. And like most nights, I have a period of clear thought. Many of my days are spent in a haze that only clears up late in the day. The fading of daylight usually has a sobering, often calming effect on me. Some nights I am able to reflect. Others I can simply be. Nights can bring on feelings of sadness and … Continue reading What Lies Ahead

I have had quite a few things bumping around in my head lately. I am taking this opportunity to “declutter” my mind, for lack of a better term. Best case scenario is that it flows nicely. Worst case is that I end up trying to edit a bowl of word salad. Overthinking: I have spent a lot of time lately on the subject of overthinking. … Continue reading (More) Ramblings

I got wrapped up in a negative thought spiral this afternoon. During these spirals it isn’t always easy to find a positive solution to calm my mind. The first solution that came to me today was self harm. Self harm feels like an old friend when I am in a stressful situation. It is what my clouded mind wants to turn towards for comfort. Today … Continue reading Breaking Down a Self Harm Thought

I was looking through my site today. I noticed that I have published 49 posts. So here goes a spontaneous celebratory post. I could not have predicted how positively this blog would impact my life. Here I am, 50 posts later and just getting started… I hope. I started this journey filled with a lot of anxiety. Hitting the “publish” button was quite difficult in … Continue reading This is 50 (blog posts)

What does mental health treatment look like? The most common treatment options are medication and therapy of some sort. Sounds simple right? The reality of treating a mental health issue is much more colourful. My own treatment journey has certainly been colourful, and in every chapter I have learned things which serve to help me along the way. Here are some of the treatment options … Continue reading Taking an Open Approach to Mental Health Treatment

A powerful realization hit me yesterday afternoon. I was crossing the street, something I have done thousands of times. But I noticed that I was missing something. A thought. For a long time I would think about getting hit by a vehicle whenever I used a crosswalk. I would go through the details of the accident, the speed of the car, the collision, and the … Continue reading Holding on and Letting Go

Hope. A strong word. A powerful feeling. Hope is resilient, hard to destroy. So many times I have felt hopeless, only to be proven wrong. Somewhere deep down there has been a flicker of hope left inside me. Enough to get me through the moment. And so I have been thinking. What if I stacked up all of the moments I have been able to … Continue reading Building a Wall of Hope

I wrote this piece a couple years ago. Still one of my favourites: You can’t see it.What’s beneath the skin.The black. It’s what I love.What I fear. Many paths have I traveled.Shrouded in sickness.The mysterious.The frightening.The woeful. I keep these hidden.A dear part of me.Although some paths surface.They heal with time.And leave a forest of scars.Some hold special meaning.While others blend with the rest. The … Continue reading The Black

Do you ever have days that seem dull, unproductive, almost pointless? I have a lot of days like that. Today is one of them. Even writing this feels like a meritless chore. On the whole, you could call it a forgettable day. But the fact is, a lot of the above is not true. Today has been neither unproductive or pointless, and writing this certainly … Continue reading Appreciate Today

I sat down to write today. After two hours on my computer, I only have a few bits and pieces of material in my mind. I’ll do my best to address them. Then I can say that I did something productive today. Solitude vs Isolation– Solitude. I love solitude. The majority of my creative work comes in solitude. I need alone time to function properly. … Continue reading Ramblings

Each and every one of us has negative thoughts. It’s part of life. While some people are able to deal with negative thoughts without much trouble, others can get stuck in them. For myself this means a lot of ruminating, basically repetitive thinking. This leads to negative thought spirals that drag me down into dark places. Once in a thought spiral, I might have great … Continue reading Breaking Negative Thought Spirals