It’s hard to quantify pain in the middle of the conflict. Difficult to assess damage while taking hits. Only after the winds die down, and the waves cease their crashing against my skull, can I look myself in the mirror, and see the suffering. And it hurts me so deeply, to see what I’ve done to myself. And I am so, so sorry. Sorry for … Continue reading Sorry Trev: An Overdue Apology

I waited eleven hours in the emergency room again. I spent twelve days in the hospital again. It’s been six years since the last time. In some ways it felt like yesterday, others a lifetime ago. A strange sense of nostalgia flouts around the place, present in the sounds, the smells, and how it feels to curl up underneath hospital sheets again. It was a … Continue reading Doing it for Myself This Time