I was looking through my site today. I noticed that I have published 49 posts. So here goes a spontaneous celebratory post. I could not have predicted how positively this blog would impact my life. Here I am, 50 posts later and just getting started… I hope.

I started this journey filled with a lot of anxiety. Hitting the “publish” button was quite difficult in the early days. For some posts, it still is. But over time I have grown much more comfortable with putting my thoughts out there. I am breaking down the negative stigmas that I have placed on myself. I never imagined myself writing about some of the dark areas of my life in such a public form. Subjects like suicide and self harm I have always kept close to the vest. Only breaching these subjects with the ones I trust implicitly. I feel that I have broken some of my self imposed barriers in this regard.

Thank you to everyone who has continued to read the words that I try to slap together in some way that makes sense. Writing a blog is not easy. Often I have trouble formulating thoughts and thinking of topics to write about. It can also be mentally and emotionally draining dealing with some of the subject matter, particularly past trauma. All that said, it feels good to get some of these thoughts and feelings out into the open, releasing them from the tight spaces in my chest.

I would also like to thank everybody who has reached out to give feedback and encouragement. These things help me to feel good about the work that I am doing. They also go a long way towards keeping me inspired. Keep reaching out. Let’s keep making a difference. Stay strong.

Here’s to 50 more blog posts,

Trevor.