I got wrapped up in a negative thought spiral this afternoon. During these spirals it isn’t always easy to find a positive solution to calm my mind. The first solution that came to me today was self harm. Self harm feels like an old friend when I am in a stressful situation. It is what my clouded mind wants to turn towards for comfort. Today … Continue reading Breaking Down a Self Harm Thought

I was looking through my site today. I noticed that I have published 49 posts. So here goes a spontaneous celebratory post. I could not have predicted how positively this blog would impact my life. Here I am, 50 posts later and just getting started… I hope. I started this journey filled with a lot of anxiety. Hitting the “publish” button was quite difficult in … Continue reading This is 50 (blog posts)

What does mental health treatment look like? The most common treatment options are medication and therapy of some sort. Sounds simple right? The reality of treating a mental health issue is much more colourful. My own treatment journey has certainly been colourful, and in every chapter I have learned things which serve to help me along the way. Here are some of the treatment options … Continue reading Taking an Open Approach to Mental Health Treatment

A powerful realization hit me yesterday afternoon. I was crossing the street, something I have done thousands of times. But I noticed that I was missing something. A thought. For a long time I would think about getting hit by a vehicle whenever I used a crosswalk. I would go through the details of the accident, the speed of the car, the collision, and the … Continue reading Holding on and Letting Go

Hope. A strong word. A powerful feeling. Hope is resilient, hard to destroy. So many times I have felt hopeless, only to be proven wrong. Somewhere deep down there has been a flicker of hope left inside me. Enough to get me through the moment. And so I have been thinking. What if I stacked up all of the moments I have been able to … Continue reading Building a Wall of Hope

I wrote this piece a couple years ago. Still one of my favourites: You can’t see it.What’s beneath the skin.The black. It’s what I love.What I fear. Many paths have I traveled.Shrouded in sickness.The mysterious.The frightening.The woeful. I keep these hidden.A dear part of me.Although some paths surface.They heal with time.And leave a forest of scars.Some hold special meaning.While others blend with the rest. The … Continue reading The Black

Do you ever have days that seem dull, unproductive, almost pointless? I have a lot of days like that. Today is one of them. Even writing this feels like a meritless chore. On the whole, you could call it a forgettable day. But the fact is, a lot of the above is not true. Today has been neither unproductive or pointless, and writing this certainly … Continue reading Appreciate Today