I enjoy the warmer weather. I am thrilled when the snow melts. But all is not well when winter lifts.

Spring can get…complicated.

New energy mixed with extra fatigue. Excitement and lethargy. A weird mixture of hypomanic and depressive symptoms and feelings. It is a breeding ground for strange thoughts. For suicidal thoughts.

Have you ever stepped outside into a world of sunlight and warmth? I have. Basking in the glow, has your first thought ever been that it seems like a wonderful day to die? Mine has.

Spring has a strange way of awakening some of the negative, restless energy within me. Energy that is mostly dormant throughout the winter months. Things get a little erratic sometimes. It can be a wild ride. A ride which from which I get a peculiar enjoyment.

Spring is also calm and peaceful. I enjoy the warmer weather. I am thrilled when the snow melts.

But sometimes spring gets…complicated.