“We survived. You and I. And those who survive have a duty. Our duty is to our best to keep on living. Even if our lives are not perfect.” -Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage Discouraged. Exhausted. Broken. Lost. Again. Sometimes everything goes right. You’re feeling good, feeling happy. You wake up to opportunity filled days. And you fall asleep at … Continue reading The Art of Keeping On

“One day, you will be old enough to start reading fairytales again.” – C.S Lewis, The Chronicles of Narnia I walked through the hospital yesterday. I passed by the mental health centre, and meandered familiar halls. Between 2015-2017 I stayed in the psychiatric ward eight times. Visiting this area never fails to bring back memories. A web of memories from a traumatic past. My first … Continue reading Reflections

“No, I give up,” Alice replied: “What’s the answer?”“I haven’t the slightest idea,” said the Hatter. -Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland In the quiet of the night. In the stillness of the morning. Through the daylight hours. Sometimes I hear them. Murmurs from the other side. I have journeyed. Ventured for many miles. Explored pathways in my mind. The paths that get a little crazy. … Continue reading Murmurs From the Other Side

“The pills sit in there in their colours and shapes ready to push me, in plastic-coated increments, into my future.” -Anna Funder, All That I Am “It will take some time, but these will make you feel better.” A statement I will never forget. I was a suffering 17 year old, in an office at a Saskatoon walk-in clinic. I believed the Doctor when he … Continue reading Roller Coaster to Relief